I am so aggravated right now. I use this website online sometimes to fill out surveys or do little tasks to earn a little extra cash. Well I just took a 20 minute survey for $1.50. Just finished and at the end I clicked the wrong button by accident and boom lost it. I swear to God they set it up like that on purpose. I am so annoyed, why do I even bother? I am so stressed out about money. So many things to pay in a short time. Preaching to the choir right? It's so frustrating being in a relationship but getting absolutely no help. I have always made decent money but ever since he came into my life I have been dead broke. No matter how much money I can seem to earn he always spends it faster then I can do anything with it. It is so unfair and I am getting really sick of it. He cant work because he cant hold down a job. Mentally he's too ill. So that leaves everything on me. Last summer he had a little job making a little money but it was good. Do you think I saw a fucking dime of that money? No, never. Did I get a thank you gift for supporting us and getting everything he has wanted or needed. No. Spent every dime on himself and going out getting fucked up all summer. God I am so sick of it. Funny how this website pissed me off and it turns to him right? Well maybe if I wasn't sitting online after working all day taking stupid surveys for pennies Id be in a better mood. And maybe if he stopped spending my fucking money I wouldn't have to do that. Crazy right?! I have needed a filling in my tooth for over a month and haven't been able to get it because of paying the lawyer and sending him money all the time. He drained me for $300 this week alone. So over it. Could have had my tooth fixed for half that price. I legit come from a middle class family. Decent house, pool the whole bit and I am going to end up missing a fucking tooth because he is too selfish to let me get it fixed and I am too fucking stupid to put my foot down for once. I am so sick of this shit but yet I am just as bad because I don't change either. I get so mad at him for not changing, yet I don't change. Go figure. We have a visit tonight and I can see in my crystal ball a fight brewing already. Maybe I should save myself the aggravation (and the gas $) and not go. That would be a change so I think we know that's not going to happen. Anyone out there wanna know my real name? Apparently it's door mat, nice to meet you.